NOTE: Read at own risk. No offence.
I really like to release my feelings here. I don't mind people reading & then comment on it. Perhaps I'm too open, releasing everything even private stuffs. Some people find me unreliable because of this. I don;t mind. All I do is release what I have in mind. No guilt for it.
Now I'm gonna be "emo" again. Seriously I hate how the current world judges peoples. That makes it a person that be his real self gets very vulnerable. He will be susceptible to most forms of emotional hurt. Why must we fake around? Why can't we be our real self? God created each one of us unique from each other, we are all special & distinct from each other. What's so wrong with exposing our "speciality"? Are there still any "sincerity" left?
I believe many people will change their mindset about being a true person and being a faker. At childhood we were thought to be honest, sincere. Yet when we reach adulthood, things started to contradict with what we wished for, a world where good prevails and evil succumbs. Such dreams are always shattered. That's why I hate the current view of the world.
I'd always be a fool, placing faith in "rather be cheated than be a cheater" (BTW, I'm not trying to be "great & holy" here....remember blog is a place to let go off things). A close friend of mine used to lied to me, & I knew about it. I just decide to "believe" in his lies, since that's what he want me to believe. I don't wanna question him, because if he has reason to lie to me, I would consider myself unqualified to know the truth. If some realized, people always say I'm "not being serious" or "kiddy/childish". I'm actually very aware of that. Maybe we should look into the root of those.
Not exaggerating, I'm always "judged" differently. Again I hate this "judging" concept. Who are we to judge others? Only God has the right to judge. All humans are equally precious in God's eye. So stop judging people. Back to topic, whatever I do, I always get the more negative comment. What I meant is, for instance, I did something like kicking a trash can. I will be yelled "don't be so childish lah". Then when others did the same thing, not even a single word came out from any mouths. When I'm just being happy-go-lucky, I will be scolded for not being serious. Is there sin in being joyful?
For those who label me as un-serious, let me tell you this. I can finish my things properly in time without pushing responsibility or avoiding problems. Now tell me what is so un-serious about me? Serious or not, please see it from the result. Not process. Or is it those who always tension here tension there will be considered serious? Happy or sad we gotta live on. Why not be happy all the way?
I do admit that I'm immature. Well, at least better than those who try to act mature. Seriously I don't understand it. Recently got a ......."group" of people label me as childish. I'm OK with it. I know. But when I ask for the reason...they came out with nothing. No reason. I call that bullshit. If they can point out I'm neglecting responsibility, never differentiate good or bad, doing reckless things, never care for others feeling (I admit I'm lacking in this...yet I don't sense any people doing it better than me....talk like care me, yet hurt me in the end). I NEVER accept childish defined as playful or joking around. Sorry but my viewpoint differs much fro others (the world). This is also the reason I NEVER commented on any one's maturity. Because I don't know their standings or believes. Not everyone share my standing (stated above).
Since "got people" ask me to understand & care bout their feelings, I don't see any reason for them not to UNDERSTAND my ground & standing. Perhaps before you wanna define some one's characteristics, please understand their thinking. Actually this post is meant for most of my non-Christian friends.
Back to the "judged differently" topic, now I actually had already stated most of the points. People always have a larger expectation of me. When I do the exact (or around) things, I always get the bad things while others nothing at all. Can someone explain this to me? Some might find it funny, but actually it's not. I'm not trying to bullshit here. I decide to post it here because I'm really confused. Is it all my fault? Anything for me to improve? If yes, please tell me WITH REASON. Don't come tell me to xxx & never tell me how or why (like what I had experienced a lot recently).
Edit: Just to clarify matters.....
The issue I'm trying to bring up here is, before anyone try to say things about others, maybe he/she should understand where the person places his life values. I realized most people "judge" others based on their own life values, based on their own measure & understanding. Isn't it selfish & unfair (or I would say...biased or more precies....self based [centered]??) Try to put yourself in their situations & beliefs. What do you place importance in your life? Where do you put your priority in? Never comment without undersanding & basis. The Bible says in whatever you do...please use wisdom!!!!! & understanding NOT from human or the world......
