I just did something I'm not supposed to do.....
When I was going out to buy some dinner, I sensed there's something beneath my car in house compund. I knew it's a dog (from the smell obviously). Then I looked down & my prediction was correct. But never did I imagined t was a very cute lil puppy. How the heck it got in my house compund? The gate's not open. Eventhough there's opening in the gate but I doubt the puppy can pass thorugh. It seems to be afraid of me at first. Any bad experience before that caused it to hide here?
Maybe I'm too bored, alne at home for so long, lacking of love huh?? I called the puppy to my side & alowed it to lick & recognize my smell. It really came. & OMG!!! It kinda liked me, following me. Die liao lah. I even played wth it. What I did later was even worse.
I went out to "dapao" my dinner, nasi lemak & guess what? With AYAM GORENG, not for me, but for that dog. Sudahlah that dog was not mine & came from dunno where, somemore I'm not supposed to do that. I had to pay the price later. When I got home, the puppy was still around.....waiting for me??? It jumps around n joy when I returned (because I'm back or because I'm back with AYAM GORENG???). I fed the dog with the bones & some meats attached to the bone. My initial plan was to give it the whole piece, but temptation wins. I myself devour most of the meat portions. Lolz. Still the amount I gave the puppy was not too small. Enough for it.
After the dinner, the dog keep on looking at me. I'm inside, the dog outside, separated by a gate. Looking at each other. Lolz. Then I realized it's a owned dog (or maybe....previously owned???). I forgot the name of the thing owners put on dog's neck. Sorry!!!
But how owned dog can run & hide in my house? Abandoned? So sad.... the "forgot what name" thing was quit old. & the dog smells like more than a week unbathed. Maybe I showed too much "compassion" to it. Now I'm inside my room typing this blog, but the dog is sleeping outside there, even sometimes scrathing the gate. I wonder why it didn't bark at all from the beginning. Mute dog? Or some trauma previously?
Let's hope the puppy leaves by tomorrow. I shouldn't fed it & played with it just now. I felt pain also. I have to pretend to ignore the puppy now. It's still outside now. I still can hear it's movement sound. I'm so sorry puppy! I must be cold, cruel & hard!!!! Please leave me. I can't be your owner. I wish I can bring it in & take it as my dog. But I know I just can't.
Why am I writing all this?
Let's relate this case to human-human relationship. No longer human-pet.
Many times, human tend to develop feelings intentionall or not, to people we know we shouldn't (a.k.a. forbidden love???). Sometimes we know that it's wrong to do that & yet we still wanna do it. & then to end it, forced to be cruel or cold or hard or whatsoever.
The process is indeed, very enjoyable, fun, filled with warmth. Jusy as in the case of the puppy, I knew if I continue to play & feed it, the outcome will be as just happened, but because of...you know lah, humans very "full of love" lah! If only I never met that puppy just now, I wouldn't be in regret & a slight sadness now (serious). But my care for the dog just now was sincere.
I used to be the "puppy". Someone used to be "me" in the story above. Perhaps God sent this incident to enlighten my mind. Lolz. Now I understand the "me" better. It was not the "puppy" nor "me" mistake. It's just our meeting shouldn't happen. Even if do meet, please don't show "compassion".
I just went out to visit the puppy. Crap...It saw me &....again...the pityful cute lovely face. This is also another problem with humans - A creature of love - . I have deicded to chase it out by tomorrow. But not so easy when it's human-human huh??? Hahaha.
When I was going out to buy some dinner, I sensed there's something beneath my car in house compund. I knew it's a dog (from the smell obviously). Then I looked down & my prediction was correct. But never did I imagined t was a very cute lil puppy. How the heck it got in my house compund? The gate's not open. Eventhough there's opening in the gate but I doubt the puppy can pass thorugh. It seems to be afraid of me at first. Any bad experience before that caused it to hide here?
Maybe I'm too bored, alne at home for so long, lacking of love huh?? I called the puppy to my side & alowed it to lick & recognize my smell. It really came. & OMG!!! It kinda liked me, following me. Die liao lah. I even played wth it. What I did later was even worse.
I went out to "dapao" my dinner, nasi lemak & guess what? With AYAM GORENG, not for me, but for that dog. Sudahlah that dog was not mine & came from dunno where, somemore I'm not supposed to do that. I had to pay the price later. When I got home, the puppy was still around.....waiting for me??? It jumps around n joy when I returned (because I'm back or because I'm back with AYAM GORENG???). I fed the dog with the bones & some meats attached to the bone. My initial plan was to give it the whole piece, but temptation wins. I myself devour most of the meat portions. Lolz. Still the amount I gave the puppy was not too small. Enough for it.
After the dinner, the dog keep on looking at me. I'm inside, the dog outside, separated by a gate. Looking at each other. Lolz. Then I realized it's a owned dog (or maybe....previously owned???). I forgot the name of the thing owners put on dog's neck. Sorry!!!
But how owned dog can run & hide in my house? Abandoned? So sad.... the "forgot what name" thing was quit old. & the dog smells like more than a week unbathed. Maybe I showed too much "compassion" to it. Now I'm inside my room typing this blog, but the dog is sleeping outside there, even sometimes scrathing the gate. I wonder why it didn't bark at all from the beginning. Mute dog? Or some trauma previously?
Let's hope the puppy leaves by tomorrow. I shouldn't fed it & played with it just now. I felt pain also. I have to pretend to ignore the puppy now. It's still outside now. I still can hear it's movement sound. I'm so sorry puppy! I must be cold, cruel & hard!!!! Please leave me. I can't be your owner. I wish I can bring it in & take it as my dog. But I know I just can't.
Why am I writing all this?
Let's relate this case to human-human relationship. No longer human-pet.
Many times, human tend to develop feelings intentionall or not, to people we know we shouldn't (a.k.a. forbidden love???). Sometimes we know that it's wrong to do that & yet we still wanna do it. & then to end it, forced to be cruel or cold or hard or whatsoever.
The process is indeed, very enjoyable, fun, filled with warmth. Jusy as in the case of the puppy, I knew if I continue to play & feed it, the outcome will be as just happened, but because of...you know lah, humans very "full of love" lah! If only I never met that puppy just now, I wouldn't be in regret & a slight sadness now (serious). But my care for the dog just now was sincere.
I used to be the "puppy". Someone used to be "me" in the story above. Perhaps God sent this incident to enlighten my mind. Lolz. Now I understand the "me" better. It was not the "puppy" nor "me" mistake. It's just our meeting shouldn't happen. Even if do meet, please don't show "compassion".
I just went out to visit the puppy. Crap...It saw me &....again...the pityful cute lovely face. This is also another problem with humans - A creature of love - . I have deicded to chase it out by tomorrow. But not so easy when it's human-human huh??? Hahaha.
Edit: Good morning! I just can't do it. I decide to let it stay for one more day, I will be leaving today. Let's hope that when I'm gone, it wil be gone as well. I took some picture of it, as a token of gratitude to it for such experience lolz.
The gate that separates us. Lolz. WHy lah this has to happen?
This is what happens everytime I come & visitthe puppy. Don't look at me please.
