Eventhough you are a troublesome person, I still do consider you as one of us, as a beloved sister.
Who told you tat you are rejected?
Truthfully you are really a nice person, adorable & cute.
Who told you that you are ugly?
But because of your attitude, everything rosak.
Everyone tries to accept you, but it is you who refuse to accept yourself.
Why create so many stories when we can see through it?
What we want is a TRUE YOU.
Previously I commit myself to help & take care of everyone, including you, our dear sister.
All this while I thought I can bear with it...but now that you had crossed the limit...sorry.
Now I felt I'm contradicting myself...I felt myself so fake now...
Telling others how nice & stuffs like that..
But behind you talking how horrible things are actually...
Yet hidden in our conversations are needles pointing at each other
Where is the sincere friendship that I foolishly felt last time?
Soft ways won't work. Now is the hard time.
You seriously hurt me....
No matter how emotional you get....
Never before you insults me...
And now this time you did it...
but I still desire to see you come back...please...
Listen to what others said about you...for we all are telling you the truth...truth that sounds ugly & offensive yet thats what truth should sound.
Why can;t you just let go & open yourself?
Stop hurting yourself & us
NOTE: This is not a BGR post...(I know it sounds very like that) But it's for a dear friend of mine...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Learning from children
"Truly, I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:3)
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:4)
Does the Word of God teaches us to be childish?...................
Every moment we grow. As human become older/elder, we tend to avoid our previous characters/traits/behaviours during our childhood times, as so called to be matured. Is it really something we should really do? What I mean is people tend try to be different when they reach adulthood. Different doesn't mean positive. It can be negative changes as well.
We always try to escape from our own original self when we grow up. As many assumes being an adult, we cannot do what we do when we were children. Well, it's half true anyway. It's all mostly because of the world view today, or more like how your mind being set (AFFECTED & CONTROLLED) by the community around.
Before going deeper, let's go to surface level first.
Who say adults CANNOT collect robot models?
Who say adults CANNOT watch anime/cartoons?
Who say adults CANNOT eat sweet/candies?
Who set all this rules?
Anything wrong/sinful with these?
However that is not the main point here. All these so-called children activities we tend to leave behind when we grow old. Actually nothing is wrong with these right? Just because the community around can't accept your hobby doesn't mean you are wrong. It's just you are different, unique, special. That's all.
Time to go into main course.
When we grow old, we also tend to leave behind "sikap-sikap" which community around think as childish. But are those things we leave behind childish or CHILDLIKE? It's two very different things. At times we will laugh at kids saying they are childish. Yet let's come to reflect on ourselves, the one we deem as matured (I'm not yet ah).
As kids we don't smoke & drink because we know it's not good for health.
As adults we smoke like hell, pollute the air like car engine farting, & we drink alcoholic drinks as if it's normal plain water. We do it because we like it & want it.
The kids know the truth & facts, & obeyed simply because it's for their own good.
The adults despite knowing the truth, did the wrong things for own pleasure & satisfaction which in turn menyusahkan orang lain & diri sendiri.
Who is the one childish here?
As kids we tend to seek counsel from parents when we dunno bout something & we believed wholeheartedly with confidence & treated each other with sincere heart.
As adults we always being suspicious, having insecurities, scheme against each other, being a big worry, condemns others, blaming each other, high ego & self righteousness, living in denial & refusing to face facts.
Are we straying away from moral values (secular people)?
As kids we have the combination of childishness & childlikeness. It may sound the same but it it not.
According to dictionary,
CHILDISH therefore refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant: childish selfishness, outbursts of temper.
CHILDLIKE therefore refers to the characteristics that are desirable and admirable: childlike innocence, trust.
As we grow older, we tend to remove both as same time because some can't differentiate both of them. The best ideal way is to be matured & yet at same time childlike. Sadly enough, the world seems to brand both togather under the label of "immaturity".
Do most of us realized when we became old, humans are trying to become children again? Is it childish or childlike? How can we say our parents that are MUCH WISER than us as childish? They had experienced the flavours of life & therefore come to realize that during life, we all gains maturity but lost our childlikeness. That's why there is a change of behaviour, to regain the childlikeness, not the childishness.
Add in both the Bible verse & the explanation from SECULAR DICTIONARY:
"Truly, I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:3).
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:4).
CHILDISH therefore refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant: childish selfishness, outbursts of temper.
CHILDLIKE therefore refers to the characteristics that are desirable and admirable: childlike innocence, trust.
Quoted from somewhere over the Internet:
"Children listen, obey and trust immediately. They know little but they listen. They are carefree but they obey. They are incapable but they trust. How many of us hear and know much about the word but turn a deaf ear to the Lord? How many of us are called for a mission but denied each and every opportunity? How many of us are equipped and empowered but doubt God's promises? "
Matthew 19:13-14
Then little children were brought to Him that He might put His hands on them and pray,but the disciples rebuked them. But Jesus said, "Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of heaven."
Mark 9:36-37
Taking a child, He set him before them, and taking him in His arms, He said to them,
"Whoever receives one child like this in My name receives Me; and whoever receives Me does not receive Me, but Him who sent Me."
God wants us to humble down ourselves, & to be as pure as children (childlike) yet be wise (matured). To me maturity is simple, having WISDOM. That's it. & I'm still trying my best to be wiser....& retaining my childlikeness....
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:4)
Does the Word of God teaches us to be childish?...................
Every moment we grow. As human become older/elder, we tend to avoid our previous characters/traits/behaviours during our childhood times, as so called to be matured. Is it really something we should really do? What I mean is people tend try to be different when they reach adulthood. Different doesn't mean positive. It can be negative changes as well.
We always try to escape from our own original self when we grow up. As many assumes being an adult, we cannot do what we do when we were children. Well, it's half true anyway. It's all mostly because of the world view today, or more like how your mind being set (AFFECTED & CONTROLLED) by the community around.
Before going deeper, let's go to surface level first.
Who say adults CANNOT collect robot models?
Who say adults CANNOT watch anime/cartoons?
Who say adults CANNOT eat sweet/candies?
Who set all this rules?
Anything wrong/sinful with these?
However that is not the main point here. All these so-called children activities we tend to leave behind when we grow old. Actually nothing is wrong with these right? Just because the community around can't accept your hobby doesn't mean you are wrong. It's just you are different, unique, special. That's all.
Time to go into main course.
When we grow old, we also tend to leave behind "sikap-sikap" which community around think as childish. But are those things we leave behind childish or CHILDLIKE? It's two very different things. At times we will laugh at kids saying they are childish. Yet let's come to reflect on ourselves, the one we deem as matured (I'm not yet ah).
As kids we don't smoke & drink because we know it's not good for health.
As adults we smoke like hell, pollute the air like car engine farting, & we drink alcoholic drinks as if it's normal plain water. We do it because we like it & want it.
The kids know the truth & facts, & obeyed simply because it's for their own good.
The adults despite knowing the truth, did the wrong things for own pleasure & satisfaction which in turn menyusahkan orang lain & diri sendiri.
Who is the one childish here?
As kids we tend to seek counsel from parents when we dunno bout something & we believed wholeheartedly with confidence & treated each other with sincere heart.
As adults we always being suspicious, having insecurities, scheme against each other, being a big worry, condemns others, blaming each other, high ego & self righteousness, living in denial & refusing to face facts.
Are we straying away from moral values (secular people)?
As kids we have the combination of childishness & childlikeness. It may sound the same but it it not.
According to dictionary,
CHILDISH therefore refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant: childish selfishness, outbursts of temper.
CHILDLIKE therefore refers to the characteristics that are desirable and admirable: childlike innocence, trust.
As we grow older, we tend to remove both as same time because some can't differentiate both of them. The best ideal way is to be matured & yet at same time childlike. Sadly enough, the world seems to brand both togather under the label of "immaturity".
Do most of us realized when we became old, humans are trying to become children again? Is it childish or childlike? How can we say our parents that are MUCH WISER than us as childish? They had experienced the flavours of life & therefore come to realize that during life, we all gains maturity but lost our childlikeness. That's why there is a change of behaviour, to regain the childlikeness, not the childishness.
Add in both the Bible verse & the explanation from SECULAR DICTIONARY:
"Truly, I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:3).
"Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:4).
CHILDISH therefore refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant: childish selfishness, outbursts of temper.
CHILDLIKE therefore refers to the characteristics that are desirable and admirable: childlike innocence, trust.
Quoted from somewhere over the Internet:
"Children listen, obey and trust immediately. They know little but they listen. They are carefree but they obey. They are incapable but they trust. How many of us hear and know much about the word but turn a deaf ear to the Lord? How many of us are called for a mission but denied each and every opportunity? How many of us are equipped and empowered but doubt God's promises? "
Matthew 19:13-14
Then little children were brought to Him that He might put His hands on them and pray,but the disciples rebuked them. But Jesus said, "Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of heaven."
Mark 9:36-37
Taking a child, He set him before them, and taking him in His arms, He said to them,
"Whoever receives one child like this in My name receives Me; and whoever receives Me does not receive Me, but Him who sent Me."
God wants us to humble down ourselves, & to be as pure as children (childlike) yet be wise (matured). To me maturity is simple, having WISDOM. That's it. & I'm still trying my best to be wiser....& retaining my childlikeness....
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Time to move on
It's now time to move on...
Time to let go of past experiences.
Since it never turn out the way I want it to be, then it best just to end it here.
Persisting just one side would end up hurting myself.
If the other party do not understand my real intention, just let it be.
How unfortunate for it to end this way, when all I want is not what you thought.
At first I thought you understand what I told you, face to face.
Or is it me that is not clear enough?
It seems like you do not trust me until the end.
It no longer matters to me.
Memory will remain, sweet or bitter doesn't make any difference anymore.
But I'm thankful for all this...
Past shall not be erased, I shall cherish it as a part of my journey.
Never forget what has happened for it has aleady happened.
History is for learning from past mistakes, not to run away from future.
Now letting go...time to look onto something new.....
I'm free.
I'm waiting for a new different one.....
Thank you Lord for setting me free. I had wasted too much time on this. I almost strayed away & now I had returned. Hold me tight, don't let me go anymore.
Now it's time to level up as well.
It's time huh?
Am I truly ready for this?
It;s not easy to be in another new level.
Can I leave things that I have?
Can I take up this challenge?
I don't wanna fade away someday.
Help me to keep me strong & remain faithful...
I leave all matters into Your mighty hands...
Guide me. Speak to me. Lead me.
Transform me. Touch me. Renew me.
Time to let go of past experiences.
Since it never turn out the way I want it to be, then it best just to end it here.
Persisting just one side would end up hurting myself.
If the other party do not understand my real intention, just let it be.
How unfortunate for it to end this way, when all I want is not what you thought.
At first I thought you understand what I told you, face to face.
Or is it me that is not clear enough?
It seems like you do not trust me until the end.
It no longer matters to me.
Memory will remain, sweet or bitter doesn't make any difference anymore.
But I'm thankful for all this...
Past shall not be erased, I shall cherish it as a part of my journey.
Never forget what has happened for it has aleady happened.
History is for learning from past mistakes, not to run away from future.
Now letting go...time to look onto something new.....
I'm free.
I'm waiting for a new different one.....
Thank you Lord for setting me free. I had wasted too much time on this. I almost strayed away & now I had returned. Hold me tight, don't let me go anymore.
Now it's time to level up as well.
It's time huh?
Am I truly ready for this?
It;s not easy to be in another new level.
Can I leave things that I have?
Can I take up this challenge?
I don't wanna fade away someday.
Help me to keep me strong & remain faithful...
I leave all matters into Your mighty hands...
Guide me. Speak to me. Lead me.
Transform me. Touch me. Renew me.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Sibuk?? Stress??
Nothing to do try to post in BM.
Ini adalah untuk pelajar universiti sahaja. Jika anda tidak tergolong dalam kategori ini mungkin anda tidak akan memahaminya.
Ada satu perkara yang sangat menarik perhatian saya sejak mamasuki UKM. Saya selalu menderngar pelajar berkata "Saya SIBUK (busy)" atau memberi alasan untuk menolak sesuatu dengan memberi alasan yang berasaskan kesibukan. Pelajat tahun satu pun pandai & kerap menggunakan statement ini = SIBUK.
Benarkah pelajar universiti begitu sibuk?
Saya mempunyai seorang direct junior yang sangat mengagumi saya dalam satu perkara: Saya terlalu senang seperti tiada urusan langsung.
Benarkah saya begitu senang?
Cuba buat analisis sikit ya....
Me = Final ear student, with thesis, involved in SUKSIS, PERKEB, KAOG, somemore can lepak always with friends......& kena balik rumah setiap minggu menemani keluarga kesayanganku... :p
Adakah saya sibuk?
Tentulah YA!!! Banyak aktiviti ni...saya berani kata saya antara golongan pelajar paling banyak komitmen dalam UKM. Bukan sahaja komitmen pelajaran, kokurikulum, pelayanan Tuhan & juga terhadap banyak geng-geng sahabat yang saya kenali. Saya budak kuat sosial ni...
Soalan kedua: Adakah saya kelihatan sibuk?
Not at all.... Sebenarnya kesibukan adalah disebabkan oleh diri sendiri @ dibuat-buat keluar.... Apa yang penting adalah sikap kita menghadapi semua ini. Ada antara kita yang belum melangkah keluar alam pekerjaan yang jauh berbeza dengan alam persekolahan(peruniversitian? Sorry I dunno the term) tetapi sudah pandai bercakap tentang betapa sibuk & "pressure, tension, stress"-nya hidup mereka. Reply saya adalah = KEPALA HOTAK ENGKAU!
Lagi nak menyelesaikan dengan merokok, minum arak & clubbing = membuktikan betapa tak masaknya otak mereka. Saya sentiasa merasa diriku tidak cukup matang tetapi apabila melihat golongan ini, jikalau saya diibaratkan seorang budak tak matang, adakah mereka seperti seorang bayi yang baru lahir?
Apa yang sibuk sangat? Apa stress kamu semua? Tolonglah jangan cuba memperbesaarkan hal yang kecil & remeh temeh. Saya nak buat sikit analogi tetapi berunsur 18SX sikit ya...Haha
Memperbesarkan hal (exaggerate) adalah ibarat memperbesarkan payu dara....
Tujuan: Menarik perhatian orang
Jika dibesarkan sikit: Nampak cantik sikit
Jika dibesarkan melampau: Hodoh gila, baik potong aje...
Tetapi akhirnya: Tidak original.... akan terbongkar akhirnya
Akibatnya: ...........(jawab sendiri)
Faham kan maksud saya?
Secara logiknya, Tuhan memberikan kita 24 jam sehari sudah cukup memadai untuk kita. Masalahnya kita sentiasa merasakan masa tidak mencukupi. Mengapa ini terjadi? SEBAB KAMU SEMUA BERFIKIR TERLALU BANYAK YANG MELEBIH-LEBIH. Don't THINK TOO MUCH! APabila berfikir terlalu banyak akan menjadi resah lalau STRESS, kemudian performance menjadi slow.....kerja tak siap, jadi tak cukup masa kemudian sibuk lah tu sebab nak mengejar masa yang hilang sia-sia hasil berfikir terlalu banyak.
Sila hadapi kenyataan. U ingat sistem pendidikan di Malaysia mampu menyebabkan otak mahasiswa/i kita berfikir dengan KBKK kah? Kritis & Kreatif? Macam lebih kepada Kolot & Kedekut. Kebanyakkan kerja adalah copy & paste prinsip lah. Cuma dalam bentuk yang lebih indah lagi, search & modify. Tolonglah jangan berlagak seperti pelajar luar negara. GET REAL PLEASE!!!
Nak kata masalah peribadi/keluarga/percintaan/persahabatan/emosi/apa-apa ajelah adalah faktor? Lagi satu KEPALA HOTAK ENGKAU. Saya pun menghadapi masalah juga. Ingat saya manusia tanpa kerisauan kah? & saya nampak ada orang yang tidak terpengaruh... Cubalah belajar berfikir secara positif. Masalah kamu bukannya dunia kiamat. Kawan saya yang meninggal ahli keluarga pun boleh stand up again, apatah lagi masalah percintaan remeh yang belum pasti pun orang itu akan berkahwin dengan anda tetapi nak buat macam sudah pasangan 100 tahun.
Apa yang kalian sibuk dengan?
Apa yang kalian stress dengan?
Kesimpulan, faktor penyebab semua ini:
- Berfikir terlampau banyak
- Bersikap pesimist
Sibuk & stress lah pada tempat yang sepatutnya. Kenalilah identiti anda, hala tuju anda, dan prioriti anda. Kalau semasa belajar sudah buat muka macam ini, macam mana nak menghadapi alam pekerjaan kelak?
Ini adalah untuk pelajar universiti sahaja. Jika anda tidak tergolong dalam kategori ini mungkin anda tidak akan memahaminya.
Ada satu perkara yang sangat menarik perhatian saya sejak mamasuki UKM. Saya selalu menderngar pelajar berkata "Saya SIBUK (busy)" atau memberi alasan untuk menolak sesuatu dengan memberi alasan yang berasaskan kesibukan. Pelajat tahun satu pun pandai & kerap menggunakan statement ini = SIBUK.
Benarkah pelajar universiti begitu sibuk?
Saya mempunyai seorang direct junior yang sangat mengagumi saya dalam satu perkara: Saya terlalu senang seperti tiada urusan langsung.
Benarkah saya begitu senang?
Cuba buat analisis sikit ya....
Me = Final ear student, with thesis, involved in SUKSIS, PERKEB, KAOG, somemore can lepak always with friends......& kena balik rumah setiap minggu menemani keluarga kesayanganku... :p
Adakah saya sibuk?
Tentulah YA!!! Banyak aktiviti ni...saya berani kata saya antara golongan pelajar paling banyak komitmen dalam UKM. Bukan sahaja komitmen pelajaran, kokurikulum, pelayanan Tuhan & juga terhadap banyak geng-geng sahabat yang saya kenali. Saya budak kuat sosial ni...
Soalan kedua: Adakah saya kelihatan sibuk?
Not at all.... Sebenarnya kesibukan adalah disebabkan oleh diri sendiri @ dibuat-buat keluar.... Apa yang penting adalah sikap kita menghadapi semua ini. Ada antara kita yang belum melangkah keluar alam pekerjaan yang jauh berbeza dengan alam persekolahan(peruniversitian? Sorry I dunno the term) tetapi sudah pandai bercakap tentang betapa sibuk & "pressure, tension, stress"-nya hidup mereka. Reply saya adalah = KEPALA HOTAK ENGKAU!
Lagi nak menyelesaikan dengan merokok, minum arak & clubbing = membuktikan betapa tak masaknya otak mereka. Saya sentiasa merasa diriku tidak cukup matang tetapi apabila melihat golongan ini, jikalau saya diibaratkan seorang budak tak matang, adakah mereka seperti seorang bayi yang baru lahir?
Apa yang sibuk sangat? Apa stress kamu semua? Tolonglah jangan cuba memperbesaarkan hal yang kecil & remeh temeh. Saya nak buat sikit analogi tetapi berunsur 18SX sikit ya...Haha
Memperbesarkan hal (exaggerate) adalah ibarat memperbesarkan payu dara....
Tujuan: Menarik perhatian orang
Jika dibesarkan sikit: Nampak cantik sikit
Jika dibesarkan melampau: Hodoh gila, baik potong aje...
Tetapi akhirnya: Tidak original.... akan terbongkar akhirnya
Akibatnya: ...........(jawab sendiri)
Faham kan maksud saya?
Secara logiknya, Tuhan memberikan kita 24 jam sehari sudah cukup memadai untuk kita. Masalahnya kita sentiasa merasakan masa tidak mencukupi. Mengapa ini terjadi? SEBAB KAMU SEMUA BERFIKIR TERLALU BANYAK YANG MELEBIH-LEBIH. Don't THINK TOO MUCH! APabila berfikir terlalu banyak akan menjadi resah lalau STRESS, kemudian performance menjadi slow.....kerja tak siap, jadi tak cukup masa kemudian sibuk lah tu sebab nak mengejar masa yang hilang sia-sia hasil berfikir terlalu banyak.
Sila hadapi kenyataan. U ingat sistem pendidikan di Malaysia mampu menyebabkan otak mahasiswa/i kita berfikir dengan KBKK kah? Kritis & Kreatif? Macam lebih kepada Kolot & Kedekut. Kebanyakkan kerja adalah copy & paste prinsip lah. Cuma dalam bentuk yang lebih indah lagi, search & modify. Tolonglah jangan berlagak seperti pelajar luar negara. GET REAL PLEASE!!!
Nak kata masalah peribadi/keluarga/percintaan/persahabatan/emosi/apa-apa ajelah adalah faktor? Lagi satu KEPALA HOTAK ENGKAU. Saya pun menghadapi masalah juga. Ingat saya manusia tanpa kerisauan kah? & saya nampak ada orang yang tidak terpengaruh... Cubalah belajar berfikir secara positif. Masalah kamu bukannya dunia kiamat. Kawan saya yang meninggal ahli keluarga pun boleh stand up again, apatah lagi masalah percintaan remeh yang belum pasti pun orang itu akan berkahwin dengan anda tetapi nak buat macam sudah pasangan 100 tahun.
Apa yang kalian sibuk dengan?
Apa yang kalian stress dengan?
Kesimpulan, faktor penyebab semua ini:
- Berfikir terlampau banyak
- Bersikap pesimist
Sibuk & stress lah pada tempat yang sepatutnya. Kenalilah identiti anda, hala tuju anda, dan prioriti anda. Kalau semasa belajar sudah buat muka macam ini, macam mana nak menghadapi alam pekerjaan kelak?
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