What females can do that males can't do...
(Based on the culture in the place where I belong, a 10 points rubbish I made myself)
1)
Girls hugging each other & holding hands in public:
= They are best friends... What a wonderful friendship...
Guys hugging each other & holding hands in public:
= Will be cursed for many generations for their public display of homosexuality.
2)
Saw a scene of lesbian couple "satisfying" each other:
= Have pity on them... : "What a waste for pretty girls to be lesbians...."
Saw a scene of gay couple "satisfying" each other:
= Awarded "The Most Obscene Sight of the Century" straightaway.
3)
A girl acting cute while posing for a photo shot:
= "Wow! You are so photogenic"
A guy acting cute while posing for a photo shot:
= Picture got deleted instantly..... Can't bear the eyesore.
4)
How about a girl becoming a housewife?
= A very noble act of self-sacrifice for the sake of her children.
How about a guy becoming a house"husband"?
= A very "noble" act of "self-sacrifice" by becoming the laughing stock of the community.
5)
A girl come to you in tears...
= "Oh dear! Please tell me what happened...Who dare to hurt such a princess?"
A guy come to you in tears...
= The image of Tanjung Rambutan is hovering your thoughts...
6)
Female rape/sexual abuse victim:
= Will be treated with up most sympathy & care by friends & family.
Male rape/sexual abuse victim:
= "Lu kena rogol ke atau lu yang rogol orang?"
7)
A girl accidentally entered a male toilet:
= "Nevermind, it's OK..."
A guy accidentally entered a female toilet:
= Loud screaming + Slap on the face + Hard lowblow kick on the balls @ "Nutcracker"
8)
When a girl asks for help (the type which actually she can do it by herself easily):
= The people around is really kind & helpful.
When a guy asks for help (the type which he seriously needs some help):
= !#$%^&*()@
9)
A wife wants to have sex with her husband:
= A very sweet romantic night.....
A husband wants to have sex with his wife:
= Ever heard of "suami rogol isteri" case?
10)
A man gets a woman out of deep trouble:
= A heroic act..."We must take care & protect them as they are gentle yet beautiful"
A woman saves a man's ass from deep shit:
= The man will have shits sticking on his ass even deeper after that.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Away for a while...
I'm going Indonesia from 20th November until 5th December. Anything just leave message online. Thanks.
Monday, November 24, 2008
SK vs SJKC
I noticed this in my university life. No offence guys. As I said, If you can't take it, then don't even atempt to read my blog.
Most (NOT ALL) Chinese that studied in Chinese school during their primary & secondary seems to be a bit racist, only mixing with their so-called "orang sendiri". Meanwhile those who studied in "Sekolah Kebangsaan" seems to have no problems mixing with other races at all.
Everone knows that, it's pointless to say much. But what I wanna emphasis here is the reason what made me decide to voice it out.
There was once a proposal to establish "Kelab Biologi" for my course. There's a meeting to discuss on what to do if it really came to real. Of course like most public universities, it's all mostly participated by Malays. What I see was saddening to me. The SK types volunteeringly participated while those SJKC type all are MISSING IN ACTION. WHat is in the minds of UNIVERSITY STUDENTS that people say has the better mentalitycompared to others?
It seems the MALAYS are even more MALAYSIAN (not MALAYsian, really MALAYSIAN) than the SJKC peoples. Somehow I sensed those SJKC peoples has this "superior" attitude, refusing to mix with others...(faham-faham lah what I meant).
Another incident that also frustates me happens in SUKSIS when new juniors are coming in & we are supposed to get new members. I was asked to find more Chinese members. One of my friend told me that some when asked why refuse to join is because they don't wanna play togather with the XXXXX's people. What is wrong with them? See the ego there?
When I was working for my industrial training at MARDI Serdang, we had "jamuan" occasionally. One of the RA praised my because eventhough I was a Chinese, I can eat without using fork & sppon togather with them & I can take Malay foods easily & even join in the "jamuan kecil". I was shocked at that time. Not to boast myself, actually what's so great with this? Then I realized something. There's another student at the opposite lab (Chinese) did not join in. Eventhough she refused politely, I can sense it's because of the "Chinese ego".
What is wrong with Chinese students nowadays? Too egoistic? Think they are too great with their super high CGPA of 4.0 yet has no skill to communicate with other races? I myself being a CHinese seriously disagree with their "HOLIER THAN THOU" attitude.
If you say I'm being naive, I would say you too ridiculous fighting over some one-player war which nobody cares anymore. Most racist people are from traditional family. The new ones are not. See the pattern? Why carry the burdern & remorse from your grand grand grand g g g g ........ parents racism issue which will not serve any better purpose in your life?
God bless the readers....
Most (NOT ALL) Chinese that studied in Chinese school during their primary & secondary seems to be a bit racist, only mixing with their so-called "orang sendiri". Meanwhile those who studied in "Sekolah Kebangsaan" seems to have no problems mixing with other races at all.
Everone knows that, it's pointless to say much. But what I wanna emphasis here is the reason what made me decide to voice it out.
There was once a proposal to establish "Kelab Biologi" for my course. There's a meeting to discuss on what to do if it really came to real. Of course like most public universities, it's all mostly participated by Malays. What I see was saddening to me. The SK types volunteeringly participated while those SJKC type all are MISSING IN ACTION. WHat is in the minds of UNIVERSITY STUDENTS that people say has the better mentalitycompared to others?
It seems the MALAYS are even more MALAYSIAN (not MALAYsian, really MALAYSIAN) than the SJKC peoples. Somehow I sensed those SJKC peoples has this "superior" attitude, refusing to mix with others...(faham-faham lah what I meant).
Another incident that also frustates me happens in SUKSIS when new juniors are coming in & we are supposed to get new members. I was asked to find more Chinese members. One of my friend told me that some when asked why refuse to join is because they don't wanna play togather with the XXXXX's people. What is wrong with them? See the ego there?
When I was working for my industrial training at MARDI Serdang, we had "jamuan" occasionally. One of the RA praised my because eventhough I was a Chinese, I can eat without using fork & sppon togather with them & I can take Malay foods easily & even join in the "jamuan kecil". I was shocked at that time. Not to boast myself, actually what's so great with this? Then I realized something. There's another student at the opposite lab (Chinese) did not join in. Eventhough she refused politely, I can sense it's because of the "Chinese ego".
What is wrong with Chinese students nowadays? Too egoistic? Think they are too great with their super high CGPA of 4.0 yet has no skill to communicate with other races? I myself being a CHinese seriously disagree with their "HOLIER THAN THOU" attitude.
If you say I'm being naive, I would say you too ridiculous fighting over some one-player war which nobody cares anymore. Most racist people are from traditional family. The new ones are not. See the pattern? Why carry the burdern & remorse from your grand grand grand g g g g ........ parents racism issue which will not serve any better purpose in your life?
God bless the readers....
2 Questions
I was once asked by a friend of mine this two questions. I can't really recall the exact questions but I will put it in my way which has the same meaning.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
The moment I was asked this two question, I knew something is wrong. Just that at that time, I was not really equipped to answer such thing out of sudden. It was one of my regretful moment. If you observed the two questions carefully, obviously these two questions are related to Christianity.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
What he meant:
If you are a sinner & God tells you if you do not put your faith in Him, He will kill you. Will you trust a God who kills?
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
What he meant:
A person do not know God since birth. The person never knew there's God. Do God has the right to judge the person who never knew Him?
I failed to answer him at that time. I kena tricked. Actually I wanna correct him on something.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
God never condemns people. A person dies because of the "sickness" not because the "doctor" kills the "patient". It is the "patient" who refuse to find the "doctor" & trust him. The "doctor" welcomes all who seeks his treatment but it seems that those "patients" are the one refusing to come to the "doctor".
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
Actually it is not really true that all "lost child" do not know the "father". It is just they do not know that is their "father". Many times people spread & share Gospel but people just ignored it. & yet they say they never heard of Jesus.
Lolz. Just to release out... Nothing special.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
The moment I was asked this two question, I knew something is wrong. Just that at that time, I was not really equipped to answer such thing out of sudden. It was one of my regretful moment. If you observed the two questions carefully, obviously these two questions are related to Christianity.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
What he meant:
If you are a sinner & God tells you if you do not put your faith in Him, He will kill you. Will you trust a God who kills?
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
What he meant:
A person do not know God since birth. The person never knew there's God. Do God has the right to judge the person who never knew Him?
I failed to answer him at that time. I kena tricked. Actually I wanna correct him on something.
1) You have a sickness & a doctor told you if you don't trust him to cure you, he will kill you. But if you don't get cured, you will die. Will you trust this doctor (who kills)?
God never condemns people. A person dies because of the "sickness" not because the "doctor" kills the "patient". It is the "patient" who refuse to find the "doctor" & trust him. The "doctor" welcomes all who seeks his treatment but it seems that those "patients" are the one refusing to come to the "doctor".
2) A father got separated from his child since birth. His child do not know him since birth. Do the father has the right to punish his child for not acknowledging this father?
Actually it is not really true that all "lost child" do not know the "father". It is just they do not know that is their "father". Many times people spread & share Gospel but people just ignored it. & yet they say they never heard of Jesus.
Lolz. Just to release out... Nothing special.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Additive Effect
I went to have dinner with my buddies after my 1st exam paper last Friday. Because I'm insane & nuts I celebrated the 1st paper with champagne. Where got people celebrate 1st day of exam? If want celebrate pun celebrate lah last day of exam. The actual reason is I'm keeping that bottle too long in my room. Hehehe. Wanna "eliminate" it A.S.A.P. Muahaha.
During the journey we all (me, Harry, WW, KinYip, Monty) is in dunno what craziness-gay mood. Without realizing I dunno who shake the champagne a bit. Everyone did the same I think. So many people shake it a bit a bit. Of course nobody will shake the bottle "tremendously" as we fear it might "burst" when we opened it. I still wanna drink it. Not gonna waste it as a burst fountain.
After we had arrived at destination, of course KinYip opened the bottle without realizing EVERYONE has built up the pressure within the liquid. Everyone contributed a bit without realizing it. When he opened it, BURST!!! I think the "fountain" rose as high as 60-80cm in the air. Not kidding! Everyone was shocked.
KinYip was not the one to be blamed. It's not his fault. It's OUR fault, EVERYONE's fault. Who ask us to all shake it?
[After the reduction of drink due to the burst, this is all left. One cup divided into 5]
Enough of story time.
Sometimes people tend to build up emotion/pressure in themselves r in others without realizing it. Yes, because it's just a little. A little as itself surely has no significant effect. Imagine what happens if the person is subjected to the same kind of emotion everyday? & then when something happens to trigger the "detonator", BOMB!!! Just like KinYip opened the cover without knowing the pressure built by 5 of us SEPARATELY but ADDITIVELY, the champagne burst!
If someone handed you a "shaken" soft drink can, how can you open it without bursting ? You open the can sikit-sikit to allow the pressure to be released outside then when the pressure is low enough, you open it all straight away.
The same concept applies in human emotions as well. You never know you has built up emotional pressure in people around you bit by bit. You can never see through the can is shaken before or not. All you can do is prevent from shaking it & hand it to burst in other's hand.
When bad things happen, the one who detonated the bomb is the one who gets all the scoldings & yelling & curses. But most of the time, those who bising-bising marah orang themselves are the one who contribute the larger portion for the pressure. I believe this scenario is very common around.
People won't angry to you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
People won't hate you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
People won't boycott you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
PEOPLE WON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR NO REASON.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
Matthew 7:3-5
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye."
Again this is sensitive & emotional. My blog is based on real life experience. Of course human life experience is like this. Don't blame me for being emotional & sensitive blog writer as well. Muahahaha.
During the journey we all (me, Harry, WW, KinYip, Monty) is in dunno what craziness-gay mood. Without realizing I dunno who shake the champagne a bit. Everyone did the same I think. So many people shake it a bit a bit. Of course nobody will shake the bottle "tremendously" as we fear it might "burst" when we opened it. I still wanna drink it. Not gonna waste it as a burst fountain.
After we had arrived at destination, of course KinYip opened the bottle without realizing EVERYONE has built up the pressure within the liquid. Everyone contributed a bit without realizing it. When he opened it, BURST!!! I think the "fountain" rose as high as 60-80cm in the air. Not kidding! Everyone was shocked.
KinYip was not the one to be blamed. It's not his fault. It's OUR fault, EVERYONE's fault. Who ask us to all shake it?
[After the reduction of drink due to the burst, this is all left. One cup divided into 5]
Enough of story time.
Sometimes people tend to build up emotion/pressure in themselves r in others without realizing it. Yes, because it's just a little. A little as itself surely has no significant effect. Imagine what happens if the person is subjected to the same kind of emotion everyday? & then when something happens to trigger the "detonator", BOMB!!! Just like KinYip opened the cover without knowing the pressure built by 5 of us SEPARATELY but ADDITIVELY, the champagne burst!
If someone handed you a "shaken" soft drink can, how can you open it without bursting ? You open the can sikit-sikit to allow the pressure to be released outside then when the pressure is low enough, you open it all straight away.
The same concept applies in human emotions as well. You never know you has built up emotional pressure in people around you bit by bit. You can never see through the can is shaken before or not. All you can do is prevent from shaking it & hand it to burst in other's hand.
When bad things happen, the one who detonated the bomb is the one who gets all the scoldings & yelling & curses. But most of the time, those who bising-bising marah orang themselves are the one who contribute the larger portion for the pressure. I believe this scenario is very common around.
People won't angry to you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
People won't hate you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
People won't boycott you for no reason.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
PEOPLE WON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU FOR NO REASON.
- ask yourself what had you done. Instead of blaming him/her, examine yourself.
Matthew 7:3-5
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye."
Again this is sensitive & emotional. My blog is based on real life experience. Of course human life experience is like this. Don't blame me for being emotional & sensitive blog writer as well. Muahahaha.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Sorry
Everyone,
I don't mean to attack anyone. I know my blog is very emotional & sensitive. Please maintain your cool when reading ya! Thanks!
I don't mean to attack anyone. I know my blog is very emotional & sensitive. Please maintain your cool when reading ya! Thanks!
Farewell Puppy.....
Please read my previous post "A Lesson From A Dog" before reading this. Thanks.
Today my my mom ask me to send the puppy somewhere else as it is starving. We can't feed it everyday. & the smell is strong. Unless we seriously take it as our pet & bela it, if not then we can't keep it in our compund. Since we can't we have no other choice but to...say goodbye.
I took the dog outside in my car & I drop it outside some kopitiam hoping it can find foods there. When I put it on the ground, I quickly entered my car. I want to drove away but then something caught my eye.
It was looking for me...with those "crying" bark..wandering around the area. I can't stand it anymore. Looking at it from a place where it cant' see me...I also cried. Then a bigger stray dog approached the puppy & the puppy ran away & hid under my car, in fear...The stray dog is much lager than the cute lil puppy. How can it survive outside like that?
I really have no other choice but to be really KERAS HATI & get out from there. I cried all the way back home. Sorry puppy. PleaseHope you wil find a new better owner.
Today my my mom ask me to send the puppy somewhere else as it is starving. We can't feed it everyday. & the smell is strong. Unless we seriously take it as our pet & bela it, if not then we can't keep it in our compund. Since we can't we have no other choice but to...say goodbye.
I took the dog outside in my car & I drop it outside some kopitiam hoping it can find foods there. When I put it on the ground, I quickly entered my car. I want to drove away but then something caught my eye.
It was looking for me...with those "crying" bark..wandering around the area. I can't stand it anymore. Looking at it from a place where it cant' see me...I also cried. Then a bigger stray dog approached the puppy & the puppy ran away & hid under my car, in fear...The stray dog is much lager than the cute lil puppy. How can it survive outside like that?
I really have no other choice but to be really KERAS HATI & get out from there. I cried all the way back home. Sorry puppy. PleaseHope you wil find a new better owner.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
A Lesson From A Dog
I just did something I'm not supposed to do.....
When I was going out to buy some dinner, I sensed there's something beneath my car in house compund. I knew it's a dog (from the smell obviously). Then I looked down & my prediction was correct. But never did I imagined t was a very cute lil puppy. How the heck it got in my house compund? The gate's not open. Eventhough there's opening in the gate but I doubt the puppy can pass thorugh. It seems to be afraid of me at first. Any bad experience before that caused it to hide here?
Maybe I'm too bored, alne at home for so long, lacking of love huh?? I called the puppy to my side & alowed it to lick & recognize my smell. It really came. & OMG!!! It kinda liked me, following me. Die liao lah. I even played wth it. What I did later was even worse.
I went out to "dapao" my dinner, nasi lemak & guess what? With AYAM GORENG, not for me, but for that dog. Sudahlah that dog was not mine & came from dunno where, somemore I'm not supposed to do that. I had to pay the price later. When I got home, the puppy was still around.....waiting for me??? It jumps around n joy when I returned (because I'm back or because I'm back with AYAM GORENG???). I fed the dog with the bones & some meats attached to the bone. My initial plan was to give it the whole piece, but temptation wins. I myself devour most of the meat portions. Lolz. Still the amount I gave the puppy was not too small. Enough for it.
After the dinner, the dog keep on looking at me. I'm inside, the dog outside, separated by a gate. Looking at each other. Lolz. Then I realized it's a owned dog (or maybe....previously owned???). I forgot the name of the thing owners put on dog's neck. Sorry!!!
But how owned dog can run & hide in my house? Abandoned? So sad.... the "forgot what name" thing was quit old. & the dog smells like more than a week unbathed. Maybe I showed too much "compassion" to it. Now I'm inside my room typing this blog, but the dog is sleeping outside there, even sometimes scrathing the gate. I wonder why it didn't bark at all from the beginning. Mute dog? Or some trauma previously?
Let's hope the puppy leaves by tomorrow. I shouldn't fed it & played with it just now. I felt pain also. I have to pretend to ignore the puppy now. It's still outside now. I still can hear it's movement sound. I'm so sorry puppy! I must be cold, cruel & hard!!!! Please leave me. I can't be your owner. I wish I can bring it in & take it as my dog. But I know I just can't.
Why am I writing all this?
Let's relate this case to human-human relationship. No longer human-pet.
Many times, human tend to develop feelings intentionall or not, to people we know we shouldn't (a.k.a. forbidden love???). Sometimes we know that it's wrong to do that & yet we still wanna do it. & then to end it, forced to be cruel or cold or hard or whatsoever.
The process is indeed, very enjoyable, fun, filled with warmth. Jusy as in the case of the puppy, I knew if I continue to play & feed it, the outcome will be as just happened, but because of...you know lah, humans very "full of love" lah! If only I never met that puppy just now, I wouldn't be in regret & a slight sadness now (serious). But my care for the dog just now was sincere.
I used to be the "puppy". Someone used to be "me" in the story above. Perhaps God sent this incident to enlighten my mind. Lolz. Now I understand the "me" better. It was not the "puppy" nor "me" mistake. It's just our meeting shouldn't happen. Even if do meet, please don't show "compassion".
I just went out to visit the puppy. Crap...It saw me &....again...the pityful cute lovely face. This is also another problem with humans - A creature of love - . I have deicded to chase it out by tomorrow. But not so easy when it's human-human huh??? Hahaha.
When I was going out to buy some dinner, I sensed there's something beneath my car in house compund. I knew it's a dog (from the smell obviously). Then I looked down & my prediction was correct. But never did I imagined t was a very cute lil puppy. How the heck it got in my house compund? The gate's not open. Eventhough there's opening in the gate but I doubt the puppy can pass thorugh. It seems to be afraid of me at first. Any bad experience before that caused it to hide here?
Maybe I'm too bored, alne at home for so long, lacking of love huh?? I called the puppy to my side & alowed it to lick & recognize my smell. It really came. & OMG!!! It kinda liked me, following me. Die liao lah. I even played wth it. What I did later was even worse.
I went out to "dapao" my dinner, nasi lemak & guess what? With AYAM GORENG, not for me, but for that dog. Sudahlah that dog was not mine & came from dunno where, somemore I'm not supposed to do that. I had to pay the price later. When I got home, the puppy was still around.....waiting for me??? It jumps around n joy when I returned (because I'm back or because I'm back with AYAM GORENG???). I fed the dog with the bones & some meats attached to the bone. My initial plan was to give it the whole piece, but temptation wins. I myself devour most of the meat portions. Lolz. Still the amount I gave the puppy was not too small. Enough for it.
After the dinner, the dog keep on looking at me. I'm inside, the dog outside, separated by a gate. Looking at each other. Lolz. Then I realized it's a owned dog (or maybe....previously owned???). I forgot the name of the thing owners put on dog's neck. Sorry!!!
But how owned dog can run & hide in my house? Abandoned? So sad.... the "forgot what name" thing was quit old. & the dog smells like more than a week unbathed. Maybe I showed too much "compassion" to it. Now I'm inside my room typing this blog, but the dog is sleeping outside there, even sometimes scrathing the gate. I wonder why it didn't bark at all from the beginning. Mute dog? Or some trauma previously?
Let's hope the puppy leaves by tomorrow. I shouldn't fed it & played with it just now. I felt pain also. I have to pretend to ignore the puppy now. It's still outside now. I still can hear it's movement sound. I'm so sorry puppy! I must be cold, cruel & hard!!!! Please leave me. I can't be your owner. I wish I can bring it in & take it as my dog. But I know I just can't.
Why am I writing all this?
Let's relate this case to human-human relationship. No longer human-pet.
Many times, human tend to develop feelings intentionall or not, to people we know we shouldn't (a.k.a. forbidden love???). Sometimes we know that it's wrong to do that & yet we still wanna do it. & then to end it, forced to be cruel or cold or hard or whatsoever.
The process is indeed, very enjoyable, fun, filled with warmth. Jusy as in the case of the puppy, I knew if I continue to play & feed it, the outcome will be as just happened, but because of...you know lah, humans very "full of love" lah! If only I never met that puppy just now, I wouldn't be in regret & a slight sadness now (serious). But my care for the dog just now was sincere.
I used to be the "puppy". Someone used to be "me" in the story above. Perhaps God sent this incident to enlighten my mind. Lolz. Now I understand the "me" better. It was not the "puppy" nor "me" mistake. It's just our meeting shouldn't happen. Even if do meet, please don't show "compassion".
I just went out to visit the puppy. Crap...It saw me &....again...the pityful cute lovely face. This is also another problem with humans - A creature of love - . I have deicded to chase it out by tomorrow. But not so easy when it's human-human huh??? Hahaha.
Edit: Good morning! I just can't do it. I decide to let it stay for one more day, I will be leaving today. Let's hope that when I'm gone, it wil be gone as well. I took some picture of it, as a token of gratitude to it for such experience lolz.
The gate that separates us. Lolz. WHy lah this has to happen?
This is what happens everytime I come & visitthe puppy. Don't look at me please.
Friday, September 12, 2008
For those interested to understand me more...
NOTE: Read at own risk. No offence.
I really like to release my feelings here. I don't mind people reading & then comment on it. Perhaps I'm too open, releasing everything even private stuffs. Some people find me unreliable because of this. I don;t mind. All I do is release what I have in mind. No guilt for it.
Now I'm gonna be "emo" again. Seriously I hate how the current world judges peoples. That makes it a person that be his real self gets very vulnerable. He will be susceptible to most forms of emotional hurt. Why must we fake around? Why can't we be our real self? God created each one of us unique from each other, we are all special & distinct from each other. What's so wrong with exposing our "speciality"? Are there still any "sincerity" left?
I believe many people will change their mindset about being a true person and being a faker. At childhood we were thought to be honest, sincere. Yet when we reach adulthood, things started to contradict with what we wished for, a world where good prevails and evil succumbs. Such dreams are always shattered. That's why I hate the current view of the world.
I'd always be a fool, placing faith in "rather be cheated than be a cheater" (BTW, I'm not trying to be "great & holy" here....remember blog is a place to let go off things). A close friend of mine used to lied to me, & I knew about it. I just decide to "believe" in his lies, since that's what he want me to believe. I don't wanna question him, because if he has reason to lie to me, I would consider myself unqualified to know the truth. If some realized, people always say I'm "not being serious" or "kiddy/childish". I'm actually very aware of that. Maybe we should look into the root of those.
Not exaggerating, I'm always "judged" differently. Again I hate this "judging" concept. Who are we to judge others? Only God has the right to judge. All humans are equally precious in God's eye. So stop judging people. Back to topic, whatever I do, I always get the more negative comment. What I meant is, for instance, I did something like kicking a trash can. I will be yelled "don't be so childish lah". Then when others did the same thing, not even a single word came out from any mouths. When I'm just being happy-go-lucky, I will be scolded for not being serious. Is there sin in being joyful?
For those who label me as un-serious, let me tell you this. I can finish my things properly in time without pushing responsibility or avoiding problems. Now tell me what is so un-serious about me? Serious or not, please see it from the result. Not process. Or is it those who always tension here tension there will be considered serious? Happy or sad we gotta live on. Why not be happy all the way?
I do admit that I'm immature. Well, at least better than those who try to act mature. Seriously I don't understand it. Recently got a ......."group" of people label me as childish. I'm OK with it. I know. But when I ask for the reason...they came out with nothing. No reason. I call that bullshit. If they can point out I'm neglecting responsibility, never differentiate good or bad, doing reckless things, never care for others feeling (I admit I'm lacking in this...yet I don't sense any people doing it better than me....talk like care me, yet hurt me in the end). I NEVER accept childish defined as playful or joking around. Sorry but my viewpoint differs much fro others (the world). This is also the reason I NEVER commented on any one's maturity. Because I don't know their standings or believes. Not everyone share my standing (stated above).
Since "got people" ask me to understand & care bout their feelings, I don't see any reason for them not to UNDERSTAND my ground & standing. Perhaps before you wanna define some one's characteristics, please understand their thinking. Actually this post is meant for most of my non-Christian friends.
Back to the "judged differently" topic, now I actually had already stated most of the points. People always have a larger expectation of me. When I do the exact (or around) things, I always get the bad things while others nothing at all. Can someone explain this to me? Some might find it funny, but actually it's not. I'm not trying to bullshit here. I decide to post it here because I'm really confused. Is it all my fault? Anything for me to improve? If yes, please tell me WITH REASON. Don't come tell me to xxx & never tell me how or why (like what I had experienced a lot recently).
Edit: Just to clarify matters.....
The issue I'm trying to bring up here is, before anyone try to say things about others, maybe he/she should understand where the person places his life values. I realized most people "judge" others based on their own life values, based on their own measure & understanding. Isn't it selfish & unfair (or I would say...biased or more precies....self based [centered]??) Try to put yourself in their situations & beliefs. What do you place importance in your life? Where do you put your priority in? Never comment without undersanding & basis. The Bible says in whatever you do...please use wisdom!!!!! & understanding NOT from human or the world......
I really like to release my feelings here. I don't mind people reading & then comment on it. Perhaps I'm too open, releasing everything even private stuffs. Some people find me unreliable because of this. I don;t mind. All I do is release what I have in mind. No guilt for it.
Now I'm gonna be "emo" again. Seriously I hate how the current world judges peoples. That makes it a person that be his real self gets very vulnerable. He will be susceptible to most forms of emotional hurt. Why must we fake around? Why can't we be our real self? God created each one of us unique from each other, we are all special & distinct from each other. What's so wrong with exposing our "speciality"? Are there still any "sincerity" left?
I believe many people will change their mindset about being a true person and being a faker. At childhood we were thought to be honest, sincere. Yet when we reach adulthood, things started to contradict with what we wished for, a world where good prevails and evil succumbs. Such dreams are always shattered. That's why I hate the current view of the world.
I'd always be a fool, placing faith in "rather be cheated than be a cheater" (BTW, I'm not trying to be "great & holy" here....remember blog is a place to let go off things). A close friend of mine used to lied to me, & I knew about it. I just decide to "believe" in his lies, since that's what he want me to believe. I don't wanna question him, because if he has reason to lie to me, I would consider myself unqualified to know the truth. If some realized, people always say I'm "not being serious" or "kiddy/childish". I'm actually very aware of that. Maybe we should look into the root of those.
Not exaggerating, I'm always "judged" differently. Again I hate this "judging" concept. Who are we to judge others? Only God has the right to judge. All humans are equally precious in God's eye. So stop judging people. Back to topic, whatever I do, I always get the more negative comment. What I meant is, for instance, I did something like kicking a trash can. I will be yelled "don't be so childish lah". Then when others did the same thing, not even a single word came out from any mouths. When I'm just being happy-go-lucky, I will be scolded for not being serious. Is there sin in being joyful?
For those who label me as un-serious, let me tell you this. I can finish my things properly in time without pushing responsibility or avoiding problems. Now tell me what is so un-serious about me? Serious or not, please see it from the result. Not process. Or is it those who always tension here tension there will be considered serious? Happy or sad we gotta live on. Why not be happy all the way?
I do admit that I'm immature. Well, at least better than those who try to act mature. Seriously I don't understand it. Recently got a ......."group" of people label me as childish. I'm OK with it. I know. But when I ask for the reason...they came out with nothing. No reason. I call that bullshit. If they can point out I'm neglecting responsibility, never differentiate good or bad, doing reckless things, never care for others feeling (I admit I'm lacking in this...yet I don't sense any people doing it better than me....talk like care me, yet hurt me in the end). I NEVER accept childish defined as playful or joking around. Sorry but my viewpoint differs much fro others (the world). This is also the reason I NEVER commented on any one's maturity. Because I don't know their standings or believes. Not everyone share my standing (stated above).
Since "got people" ask me to understand & care bout their feelings, I don't see any reason for them not to UNDERSTAND my ground & standing. Perhaps before you wanna define some one's characteristics, please understand their thinking. Actually this post is meant for most of my non-Christian friends.
Back to the "judged differently" topic, now I actually had already stated most of the points. People always have a larger expectation of me. When I do the exact (or around) things, I always get the bad things while others nothing at all. Can someone explain this to me? Some might find it funny, but actually it's not. I'm not trying to bullshit here. I decide to post it here because I'm really confused. Is it all my fault? Anything for me to improve? If yes, please tell me WITH REASON. Don't come tell me to xxx & never tell me how or why (like what I had experienced a lot recently).
Edit: Just to clarify matters.....
The issue I'm trying to bring up here is, before anyone try to say things about others, maybe he/she should understand where the person places his life values. I realized most people "judge" others based on their own life values, based on their own measure & understanding. Isn't it selfish & unfair (or I would say...biased or more precies....self based [centered]??) Try to put yourself in their situations & beliefs. What do you place importance in your life? Where do you put your priority in? Never comment without undersanding & basis. The Bible says in whatever you do...please use wisdom!!!!! & understanding NOT from human or the world......
Monday, August 4, 2008
To the person I meant this to, please read it until the end.
I had waited for you to face me long enough, even now I'm still waiting. I dunno you intentionally forgot it or don't understand when I told you last time (many times) "I wanna talk with you, alone".
It's almost one year since you "killed" me. Maybe you thought that running away, not facing me is the best choice. It did worked, for you at least. Everything turned out "good" isn't it? Instead of facing it, you choose to avoid it. Do you know the aftermath of your decision of not facing me? Read on.
I dunno what's the reason you did this to me, not even saying A SINGLE WORD to me. I dunno what are you thinking. In fact I dunno anything. You seems to hide everything from me right from the start, even now. Do you understand my feeling of KNOWING NOTHING? It's between us, not between "he" and you. How come he knows EVERYTHING while I know NOTHING? Do you know this hurts me greatly? In fact, I feel like I do not know you at all now. Who has changed?
Why always ask him about me? Why not ASK ME DIRECTLY? If you try to care about my feeling, why not REALLY CARE? I'm here but it seems that I'm invisible in your eye. Why refuse to face me? I don't even have an answer to anything except the reason you "killed" me. That also is through him. Other than that...I know nothing, just like a chicken in farm not knowing that it will be a fried chicken soon. Who am I to you? A fool?
You always say that I'm very "bothering" & childish. But had you asked yourself WHY instead of putting all the blame on me? To be honest, I really feel like slaping you. Why you always tell me to be considerate & care for others BUT YOU NEVER EVEN CONSIDER & CARE FOR MY FEELINGS??? Your choice of avoiding the problem saved you, but it HURTS ME DEEPLY.
Previously I don't mind, I even try to forget & let go, but recently I realized I'm just lying to myself. Do you know that I'm crying, even now? I really care & mind the way you treat me last time. Since you can start it, why you don't have the courage to end it yourself? Is it very hard for you to open your mouth? All I want is just to hear it, from your personally. That's the least you can do for me, at least please RESPECT MY FEELINGS. You know, I even had the idea that you were fooling and playing around with me last time.
Now you see me I'm fine, but tell you honestly, everytime after you left, I'm sad. The smile I put in front of you is fake. I can't believe you can't see it through. If you noticed, I had changed since "that day". I'm no longer my usual self. I can no longer be myself in front of you. Maybe to you, I'm insignificant, but you almost used to be my world (luckly this foolishness were stopped, but not by you, it's by him...how sad and pathetic).
I really hope you understand what I meant. Just a word from you...personally this time, not from another "agent" of yours. Please learn to face it. Running away will not solve the problem, it will just hurt the one left behind.
I don't wanna be the Mr.Know NOTHING anymore. I would rather know the cruel truth than be the idiot forever. I'm sorry to dig out the old story at this time, but it was due to I can no longer bear it anymore. All thanks to your unclean & unfinished business last time. I know you actually don't trust me, or in fact, NEVER trust me. How sad... Please trust me in this at least. I wanna face it.
Please, face me. Although it's long time ago, I still care and I realized I can't let go & go on unless you come and tell me PERSONALLY. You start it, then please finish it.
Help me end my suffering please... I'm not trying to "lebih-lebih" here. One last shocking truth to you, since that day, I start to have this problem in my mind. Something like a mental disease. I will feel very down whenever I saw you "ignore" me. Not only feel down, I will lose control of myself & do "not good" things after that, things that I never imagine I will do(obviously without you knowing). I always scold myself for that. Only you can release me from this emotional struggle.
I just want you to answer me this:
"Why?"
(eventhough I knew it, I just wanna listen it right from YOU)
It's almost one year since you "killed" me. Maybe you thought that running away, not facing me is the best choice. It did worked, for you at least. Everything turned out "good" isn't it? Instead of facing it, you choose to avoid it. Do you know the aftermath of your decision of not facing me? Read on.
I dunno what's the reason you did this to me, not even saying A SINGLE WORD to me. I dunno what are you thinking. In fact I dunno anything. You seems to hide everything from me right from the start, even now. Do you understand my feeling of KNOWING NOTHING? It's between us, not between "he" and you. How come he knows EVERYTHING while I know NOTHING? Do you know this hurts me greatly? In fact, I feel like I do not know you at all now. Who has changed?
Why always ask him about me? Why not ASK ME DIRECTLY? If you try to care about my feeling, why not REALLY CARE? I'm here but it seems that I'm invisible in your eye. Why refuse to face me? I don't even have an answer to anything except the reason you "killed" me. That also is through him. Other than that...I know nothing, just like a chicken in farm not knowing that it will be a fried chicken soon. Who am I to you? A fool?
You always say that I'm very "bothering" & childish. But had you asked yourself WHY instead of putting all the blame on me? To be honest, I really feel like slaping you. Why you always tell me to be considerate & care for others BUT YOU NEVER EVEN CONSIDER & CARE FOR MY FEELINGS??? Your choice of avoiding the problem saved you, but it HURTS ME DEEPLY.
Previously I don't mind, I even try to forget & let go, but recently I realized I'm just lying to myself. Do you know that I'm crying, even now? I really care & mind the way you treat me last time. Since you can start it, why you don't have the courage to end it yourself? Is it very hard for you to open your mouth? All I want is just to hear it, from your personally. That's the least you can do for me, at least please RESPECT MY FEELINGS. You know, I even had the idea that you were fooling and playing around with me last time.
Now you see me I'm fine, but tell you honestly, everytime after you left, I'm sad. The smile I put in front of you is fake. I can't believe you can't see it through. If you noticed, I had changed since "that day". I'm no longer my usual self. I can no longer be myself in front of you. Maybe to you, I'm insignificant, but you almost used to be my world (luckly this foolishness were stopped, but not by you, it's by him...how sad and pathetic).
I really hope you understand what I meant. Just a word from you...personally this time, not from another "agent" of yours. Please learn to face it. Running away will not solve the problem, it will just hurt the one left behind.
I don't wanna be the Mr.Know NOTHING anymore. I would rather know the cruel truth than be the idiot forever. I'm sorry to dig out the old story at this time, but it was due to I can no longer bear it anymore. All thanks to your unclean & unfinished business last time. I know you actually don't trust me, or in fact, NEVER trust me. How sad... Please trust me in this at least. I wanna face it.
Please, face me. Although it's long time ago, I still care and I realized I can't let go & go on unless you come and tell me PERSONALLY. You start it, then please finish it.
Help me end my suffering please... I'm not trying to "lebih-lebih" here. One last shocking truth to you, since that day, I start to have this problem in my mind. Something like a mental disease. I will feel very down whenever I saw you "ignore" me. Not only feel down, I will lose control of myself & do "not good" things after that, things that I never imagine I will do(obviously without you knowing). I always scold myself for that. Only you can release me from this emotional struggle.
I just want you to answer me this:
"Why?"
(eventhough I knew it, I just wanna listen it right from YOU)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
NO time to rest
Haihz... Just when I thought my ordeal is going to end... (industrial training) I received a surprise call today. My training ends this Friday. I thought I could use the weekends to rest & prepare for new semester & this piece of shyte came. I'm ordered by SUKSIS to return to UKM 7:30am Saturday to help in "Pengambilan Skuad Baru" . What the heck? Practically I have to rush back home from Serdang to Klang at night, pack up all my rubbish stuffs, fly back to Bangi the next early early morning. Give me a break man...I'm exhausted. Have mercy on me!!! Did they consider that I'm having my practical until the last week of holiday? But duty calls... KNS betul.
Friday, June 20, 2008
What Subsidy?
I received an e-mail about this & I figured out worth sharing...although I don't know how true...
There is no such thing as subsidy for the oil that is produced in Malaysia. The term 'subsidy' has been royally used left, right and centre but no one is really sitting down and thinking hard and asking themselves, what is there to subsidise? Who is paying whom? In actual fact, the hike in petrol price in Malaysia has nothing to do with a subsidy because we produce our own oil. An analogy - if you produce your own rambutans in your backyard, you are free to enjoy your own fruits. How can you tell people you are subsidising your rambutans or eating it at a subsidised rate? In actual fact, there is no subsidy at all. It is called opportunity cost. Dr Mahathir Mohamad, being the Petronas Adviser and probably the only person who really knows the accounts, production and profit of Petronas, states that Malaysia produces 650,000 barrels a day of crude oil. A total of 400,000 is used for local consumption in Malaysia (ie, the petrol we use), leaving 250,000 barrels to be exported. He further claims that these 250,000 barrels alone produced daily will bring Petronas about RM27 billion profit annually. And this is assuming global oil price is US$130. If it goes up to US$200, you can imagine how much Petronas will make. And mind you, this is just the exported portion, in other words, this is just the excess 250,000 barrels exported alone. So, what subsidy is there? There is no subsidy at all. The 400,000 barrels used in Malaysia is produced by Malaysia in the first place. We are producing our own rambutan ie, oil. What all the drama is about is the fact that Petronas wants to sell all the 650,000 barrels it produces per day at the global market rates of US$130 per barrel. They want to reap even more profits. This is called opportunity cost and not subsidy. The 400,000 barrels per day consumed by Malaysians and sold at a cheaper rate can be sold at full market price to the global market. To put is clearly, 'opportunity cost' - which would be the revenue that is being lost because the oil is being sold locally at less than the global market price. In other words, extra revenue that could have been earned - has been lost. Unlike other oil producing countries which sell their oil cheaply to their rakyat, we on the other hand, are not bothered about our rakyat. Our petrol prices are either one of the highest or the highest in the world amongst all the oil-producing countries. Don't forget that we have one of the highest car prices in the world too, after Singapore. I think it is even higher than Singapore because the purchasing power of Singaporeans is much higher than Malaysians. So a S$60, 000 Honda City in Singapore is not a big deal to a Singaporean earning about three times a Malaysian earns.Please be reminded, too, that Petronas is government-owned so, again, what subsidy is there? Rakyat is not stupid lah; use proper terms, the correct term is 'opportunity cost'. How are the young economics graduates from the local universities going to become good international economists when simple terms like 'subsidy' are confused as 'opportunity cost'?
There is no such thing as subsidy for the oil that is produced in Malaysia. The term 'subsidy' has been royally used left, right and centre but no one is really sitting down and thinking hard and asking themselves, what is there to subsidise? Who is paying whom? In actual fact, the hike in petrol price in Malaysia has nothing to do with a subsidy because we produce our own oil. An analogy - if you produce your own rambutans in your backyard, you are free to enjoy your own fruits. How can you tell people you are subsidising your rambutans or eating it at a subsidised rate? In actual fact, there is no subsidy at all. It is called opportunity cost. Dr Mahathir Mohamad, being the Petronas Adviser and probably the only person who really knows the accounts, production and profit of Petronas, states that Malaysia produces 650,000 barrels a day of crude oil. A total of 400,000 is used for local consumption in Malaysia (ie, the petrol we use), leaving 250,000 barrels to be exported. He further claims that these 250,000 barrels alone produced daily will bring Petronas about RM27 billion profit annually. And this is assuming global oil price is US$130. If it goes up to US$200, you can imagine how much Petronas will make. And mind you, this is just the exported portion, in other words, this is just the excess 250,000 barrels exported alone. So, what subsidy is there? There is no subsidy at all. The 400,000 barrels used in Malaysia is produced by Malaysia in the first place. We are producing our own rambutan ie, oil. What all the drama is about is the fact that Petronas wants to sell all the 650,000 barrels it produces per day at the global market rates of US$130 per barrel. They want to reap even more profits. This is called opportunity cost and not subsidy. The 400,000 barrels per day consumed by Malaysians and sold at a cheaper rate can be sold at full market price to the global market. To put is clearly, 'opportunity cost' - which would be the revenue that is being lost because the oil is being sold locally at less than the global market price. In other words, extra revenue that could have been earned - has been lost. Unlike other oil producing countries which sell their oil cheaply to their rakyat, we on the other hand, are not bothered about our rakyat. Our petrol prices are either one of the highest or the highest in the world amongst all the oil-producing countries. Don't forget that we have one of the highest car prices in the world too, after Singapore. I think it is even higher than Singapore because the purchasing power of Singaporeans is much higher than Malaysians. So a S$60, 000 Honda City in Singapore is not a big deal to a Singaporean earning about three times a Malaysian earns.Please be reminded, too, that Petronas is government-owned so, again, what subsidy is there? Rakyat is not stupid lah; use proper terms, the correct term is 'opportunity cost'. How are the young economics graduates from the local universities going to become good international economists when simple terms like 'subsidy' are confused as 'opportunity cost'?
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
KESAS Highway jam like mad!!!
I drove to work this morning from Klang to Serdang using KESAS highway. Normally I depart from home 7:00am & I can reach in time. But recently there's a stupid construction going on. KESAS is famous on it's Kemuning part with the special detour. But this time the waves of cars stretches even beyond the detour. Jam there for 2 hours. Imagine moving 2-3m every 3-4mins!!! Ridiculous lah! Eventually I fall asleep in the middle of highway (too bored).
[ Really thanks to this man..... ]
The best part of the story:
I heard some "knock knock" sound. A Malay man was knowcking my car window to WAKE ME UP!!!. He got out from his car which is right behind me to "keep the traffic moving" (means I'm the one blocking the traffic now because I ....sleeping). Malu gila lah!!! Even the car in front of me before & after the brief moment of zzzz is different...someone must had overtaken me because I'm NOT MOVING. Lolz.
Moral of the story: Don't sleep & drive.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
My First Post
Seems like everyone is blogging now. So I started this blog for fun. Maybe I will update once a while. I'm not the blogger type of people & I also dunno how to decorate this ugly blog unlike others. OK then.
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